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    Hi everyone,

    Idk where 2 start.
    Well .. I met my partner when I was 14 and back in highschool (2006). He , Steven, was 21 , I knew that and lied about my age I had said I was 17 because we met in this club , because I just wanted him so bad.
    (I knew the age difference wasn't really right, but I wanted it
    When where so in love, you know the puppy love stage.

    He was a BadBoy and I loved that.
    So 2 months of seeing each other , he just went off the radar.
    There I was , alone ,worried , confused.

    Days pass ,weeks starting to pass
    Still no sign.
    I thought I was played by him and started 2 move on.
    Still 14

    So I then , I began 2 talk 2 this boy ,Trey, again who I already had seeing before I met Steven. But because I fell in love with Steven , I had broken all contact with Trey, like everyone who goes from single 2 falling in love.

    We all know ppl before getting in 2 a relationship.
    But my difference was, I was 14-15, I was young. He left me with no words ,so I moved on.

    So I was dating Trey (who was 18 at the time) for maybe 6 months now.
    He treated me so nice and loving. And everything just went good, I had put Steven out of my had by this time , I was still wondering what happened 2 him but I had moved on..

    Then all of a sudden, I was walking with my mom and a schoolfriend in the town mall.
    There he was .. Steven!
    Standing in a clothing store.
    He saw me and boomm.
    I told my mom 2 go ahead as me and my friend walked up 2 Steven.
    He was nearly crying seeing me.

    We met up 2 talk about his sudden disappearance.
    He had fled ,the Netherlands (that's where we live)
    And he went to the D.R.
    2 hide out , because I got himself in trouble that's why he just ghosted everyone.

    There was me , moved on with a new boyfriend. What was I supposed 2 do. I was 14 at the time he left.
    I felt bad now, because if I knew why he left I would've waited on him.

    So as much as I was in love with Trey. I just went and chose 2 be with Steven again.

    Everything was nice and good, untill I started seeing lil signs of Steven being upset of the fact I had dated someone when he was gone, fanished.

    We dated for maybe 7 months , I was now I think 16, still young.
    When Steven got arrested for possessing a firearm , I knew about that.
    He spent maybe 1 and half year in prison.
    Months past by me visiting him , I was just alone and young.
    I was thinking about how I didn't want this for myself.
    I was alone for maybe 6mnths ,when I met Jeremy (18) I was prob 16ish 17.

    So slowly I was moving on breaking myself away from Steven and getting closer to Jeremy.
    Couple months (like 7 maybe) me and Jeremy where dating, with ups and downs. When I accidentally got pregnant. We where on medium good grounds.

    I was shocked but I wanted 2 keep it because I was surrten that me and Jeremy where in love and ready.
    Than Steven had called me , he still rang me maybe 1s a week 2 check on me, when I told him that I got pregnant.
    And we couldn't call no more ,I was moving on, again.

    So I was pregnant and happy.
    Then I started noticing that Jeremy changed. He was first happy now he said he didn't want the baby and everything. There was I , thinking that Jeremy was my world and he tricked me first 2 be happy and now backing up, and telling me 2 get an abortion.
    I was in disbelief. And thought how can you be so ignorant and heartless. I talked with my parents and was going 2 have a abortion. I realized that I was 2 young. And didn't want 2 have anything to do with Jeremy noo more ,so I fucked him off !
    I stayed single for maybe 8mnths. (My best time) I was now 17 enjoying life like every other teenager at that age and wasn't planning on having no boyfriends no more.

    When I got talked 2 by a friend of Steven (who was still in jail)
    And he told me Steven had said if you see Kiki ask her number so he could give it 2 Steven.
    With hesitation I gave my number.

    Steven called me a couple days later , and yepp you prob already know .. Boom we just kicked off like we never had broken up.

    He got out a coulpe off months later and we just got together and that was that.
    I got pregnant of Steven when I was 18.
    We had a beautiful boy.
    I was 19 and a young mom.
    And felt like this was what was meant 2 be All along.

    When our son was 3mnths old , I went 2 visit my best friend. With the baby. And I came home like about 10.30pm .. it was a bit rainy.
    As I walked in the house, Steven got really mad.
    Because in his eyes I was late it was rainy and I was a badmom for being outside with the baby.
    (Mind you, the stroller had rain protection , and I only had 2 walk 5 min from home 2 the Tram)
    Slappp .. he hitt me.
    I was shocked.


    Days pas weeks pas .. we didn't talk about it.
    I knew this wasn't right but I stayed.
    We went on but from now we just had falling in a pattern of arguing bout lil things.

    Couple years past.
    We became parents of a lil prinses.

    Our relationship was strong but it was cracked.

    He was and still , now I am 28, blaiming me for my past choices.
    For dating other guys when I wasn't with him.
    I was young when that all happened.
    I was losing my respect for him more and more .

    Now we gone break up because..

    Whenever he went out 2 go meet his friends and family , he never really answered his phone or keep me updated about his where abouts

    When I got mad , when he came home like 2 - 6 am in the morning , I got really mad and upset.
    Mind you I was changed in this agresive woman , because of hurt, because I had 2 hear day in day out for every mistake I made when I was 14..15.

    Steven thinks , that I have no right 2 doubt or question him ,and if he does cheat I don't have the right 2 be upset because I did way more stuff 2 him.

    Kiki
    > 2 jaar geleden
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    • Wow what a story, looks like you have been through a lot... things you don't deserve.
      He can't blame you for making the choices you made when you were that young. You just lived your life like a teenager is supposed to. At that age you don't know any better, besides you really don't know what you want or need at that age. And your story tells me that he had been to jail and all, maybe he should be lucky you even still wanted a future with him? He can at least be more grateful.. since a lot of woman would have made an other choice here in my opinion... I think he is the one who made mistakes, not you. It is easy for him to blame you. I don't think this is a healthy relationship. Even though every relationship has its problems, but slapping someone is just not okay!!! It seems he wants to control you. And when you want to know something, like when he will be home, you don't get a response. So you have to be home in time but he doesn't? This relationship is not just, and it is changing you as a person, for the worst... you don't sound happy... things need to change or you need to leave him... you are still too young to waste your life like that.

      Anoniem
      > 2 jaar geleden
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    • Very interesting how you follow your feelings, only learn to see red flags sooner and keep better boundaries. And cut out bad menn, who dont answer phones, or are in jail.. :p. Then youll be fine, you sound like a strong woman.

      zelda
      > 2 jaar geleden
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