For all of you who are grieving, there is a wonderfull book that might be helpful to you. The title: it's ok that you're not ok, meeting grief and loss in a culture that doesn't understand by Megan Devine.
This book is a permission slip to feel what you feel, do what you do and say what you say when life finds you in a place of profound loss and the world seems hell-bent on telling you the right way to get back to being the person you'll never be again.
It may be so, that the experience of the writer is not comparable to yours, on the other hand it helps you to allow yourself to be compassionate to yourself and to reach out for help to bear the pain without suffering.